That’s not just a clever ABC ad circa 1994. It’s a postcard that hangs on my office wall from one of those postcard stands outside restaurant bathrooms that my dear friend and longtime penpal (back when there were paper and pens and pals and things) Laurasent me to cheer me up over a decade ago.
Eight years ago this week, my friend lost her life-long battle with Cystic Fibrosis due to complications after a seemingly successful lung transplant. Laura, through all your struggles your compassion and your sense of humor never failed you, and for that you continue to inspire me pretty much every single day of my life. I miss you, and think of you often, m’lady.
For the second time since I started this project, I had that moment of panic, looking at my clean desk, wondering what the hell I did with that fax/letter/contract/invoice/policy/note. I felt the cold sweat start to creep up, and my heart start to pick up it’s pace. And then I looked on the wall. Active Insurance. There it was, in it’s entirety. BOOM. Junk mail is being held at bay, and the one-two combo of shredder/recycler shows no signs of weakening.
The purging is working.
But fuck, purging can be painful sometimes, huh? I’ve been lost in paperwork, both in real life, and for my purging project (also real life, but you know what I mean) and this is the point in my major overhauls where I just want to give up. {I say “my major overhauls” because we all know this isn’t the first time I’ve tried to get my shit together.}
Have a kid changes things. Before motherhood, I had this sense that life hadn’t really started yet. But that sense is gone now. Life is ON. This is it. And that’s fucking scary sometimes. Sometimes, that’s so scary it takes xanax to tuck me in at night. I’ll be 30 in June, so as you can imagine this purge has deeper meaning for me than just a bit of spring cleaning. So even when my posts are late, or I just want to pull the covers over my head and stay in bed all day I won’t give up. Because LIFE IS ON. So this thing, this #PurgedayThursday? {Why the hell am I hashtagging outside of twitter} It’s ON too.
How do you push through the wall? How do you keep from giving up when life gets you down? I know I’m supposed to be inspiring you guys to purge and get your shit together, but do you mind if today maybe I try to glean my inspiration from you, instead?
AND DID YOU DO A THURSDAY PURGEDAY POST OR WHAT!?
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